I Was Born To Create

The Toronto Pride Parade is coming up in a week.

ONE WEEK.

Jeremy (my boyfriend, in case you didn’t know) thought it would be an amazing experience to connect with the Women’s Center/Pride Committee on our campus to march in the parade. It turns out that the group of students from our campus are marching with the AIDS Committee of Durham Region. 

THE MORE THE MERRIER, I SAY!

I am hoping that I can learn a lot from being people who are unashamed of themselves and love themselves despite being under attack as a community and as individuals. What I want out of my experience next week is inspiration, something that hits my heart as much as it hits my head. 

So I ended up at the AIDS Committee of Durham Region Office today to sign a release form and create signs for the parade with a couple of familiar faces within a mostly new group. 

The theme this year is BORN THIS WAY. It’s like Glee but with signs and a parade instead of shirts and a song and dance number. We were all told to make a sign relating to the theme. 

My sign says I WAS BORN TO CREATE.

It was the first thing I came up with in my head and it had nothing to do with my sexuality (I’m a boring standard straight girl, and even though I love my friends in the LGTBQ community, I had no commentary to make about myself relating to my personal preference).

But for me, I needed to find something I love about myself to focus on. For me, the message of Pride is Love. How am I supposed to walk in a group of people who are expressing their pride, their love for who they are as individuals when I am not doing the same thing?

So today, I made the sign personal. And I made the event personal. I am going to learn to make every single day a celebration of PRIDE and LOVE. Even if it’s just for myself.

The girl sitting next to me while I was making my sign asked me, “What were you born to create?”

I didn’t have an answer right off the top of my head…but I realized what the answer was after the fact.

I was born to create positive energy.

I was born to create positive space.

I was born to create to express myself.

I WAS BORN TO CREATE MY OWN DESTINY.

The truth is, I am still going to struggle to love myself. But I’ve figured out how to deal with that struggle.

At the end of the day, I was born to love myself as much as I love others.